Journal 4-14-12

Today is a dear friend’s birthday. I am nostalgic thinking of all the events we’ve shared over the last 25 years. How I could I have taken so much for granted? And how can I stop chewing on all that I could do, and figure out what the hell I can do now? (stomping foot)

So many of my friends still support me even tho’ I am silent back to them. They believe in me and know the cards they send are appreciated. But I hate my rudeness, not being able thanks to the stubborn child in my mind, to say “thank you.”

I joined “FTD Patient Forum” on Facebook, and awhile ago joined www.FTDSupportForum.com . So many people tell us, who visit, how delighted they are at how passive -even optimistic- we are. Well, truth be told there are days I am a complete bitch, nothing is right, and I pound the air with a rage I’ve never known.

Bottom line: don’t put my name in for sainthood. Should you be so inclined, talk to my children. And, it’s not going to get better as the ole noggin’ keeps shedding cells.

Papa, WHY couldn’t I lose weight as fast as I shuck off my brain? You may need more advisors, I’m thinking. Don’t ask me today, however. I am in a bad, bad mood. It’s, of course, Vicki. ;o(

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    • Mo McNamara on May 14, 2012 at 4:21 pm
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    Dearest Vicki, Don’t we all have days like that?? Usually with nowhere near the reasons you have. You are a darling. Let it all out! It’s good for you!!I still haven’t really got into Facebook and probably never will. Now that I’m going on 81!! Just like a little kid talking about how old they’re GOING to be. Just a couple of days ago when I was in a bad mood I told Larry I was going to take a nap and I would wake up a different person. “Oh”, he said, “will you be 5’6″, 125 lbs.& a blonde? I can hardly wait for you to wake up!” He’s the same old Larry! Sure would love to see you. Sherry Hanson said she goes to Lansing every now and then and she’d take me with her sometime so we could go see you. She’s a great gal. Of course, we’d let you know ahead of time to make sure you were in the mood to have visitors. Would that be all right? Love you lots, Mo

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